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“Never Quit,” that’s what I tell myself each day. Even got it tattooed on my left leg. Throughout this journey, you saw the worst I had to bring and if you’re livid at least I know it’s because of me
Please do not worry, I’m doing fine this time
I’m on the road to recovery taking back what I feel is worth it to me. I can’t do this alone, I can’t live like this anymore. I know I’m late but it’s better than too late
I have no excuse for all I put my family through just wish I had sought treatment so much sooner. Yet still it’s risky to say what’s really on my mind or what had happened out and in the public eye
And probably it’s better off that way
I’m on the road to recovery taking back what I feel is worth it to me. I can’t do this alone, I can’t live like this anymore. I know I’m late but it’s better than too late
This is the first time I can speak, this is the first time I can be selfish thinking of what’s best for me. This is the last time I will feel sorry for me because it seems as if I got much more left in the tank
This is not a, “pity party,” I don’t need you to feel sorry nor do I expect your call when times are tough. My self worth is the only thing that matters at this moment. If my diagnosis is too embarrassing for you well, too fucking bad!
I’m on the road to recovery taking back what I feel is worth it to me. I can’t do this alone, I can’t live like this anymore. I know I’m late but it’s better than too late
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Grandpappy - Dancing
04:38
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It feels like yesterday that we were just ice skating. Holding hands and making plans about how we will live tomorrow today. We were both 21 with pennies in our pocket. We were young and immature and I was 20 more times insecure
It’s all my fault for why you’re gone and I admit that I was in the wrong. Although we’re married separately I still hold on to our memories
I remember us dancing under the starlight, those late nights teaching you to drive, staying up to see you after work before I get home. I remember all the laughs and all the tears after I broke your heart. Even though we’re not together I know that without me you’re better off
In all the time I spent away from you just thinking, “What the hell I could do better to get you back into my arms for one day?” Flash forward several years, you’re still not in my arms girl ‘cause you moved on to someone better just like I did the exact same thing for me.
My world got better eventually despite everything life was throwing at me. What made it worse through those times was just thinking of our memories
I remember us dancing under the starlight, those late nights teaching you to drive, staying up to see you after work before I get home. I remember all the laughs and all the tears after I broke your heart. Even though we’re not together I know that without me you’re better off
I have no ill-will towards you just like you have no hatred for me. I know he makes you happy just like you wanted the same for me. We’re older and we’re more mature and I am 20 times less insecure. I hope this wasn’t a waste for you creating our memories.
I remember us dancing under the starlight, those late nights teaching you to drive, staying up to see you after work before I get home. I remember all the laughs and all the tears after I broke your heart. Even though we’re not together I know that without me you’re better off
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The rain was over by the time you left.
The feelings were mutual until I looked back.
Please forgive me when I say that I am sorry.
It's not every day that I ask for a second chance.
I'll just stay awake instead
Without you here in my bed
In the morning I will feel as bad as when you left.
I've decided to run away from home
'Cause our memories haunt me like a ghost
I've been trying to find help but they say "it's all in my head"
It's all in my head.
I'm lost and I'm sorry.
Your heart is still with me.
I'll just stay awake instead
Without you here in my bed
In the morning I will feel as bad as when you left.
I've decided to run away from home
'Cause our memories haunt me like a ghost
I've been trying to find help but they say "it's all in my head"
It's all in my head.
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I haven't felt this stressed before.
I'll leave your presents at the door.
I felt the need to walk away.
I couldn't find the words to say.
Struggling through the holidays.
Maybe next year I'll be okay.
Tell the kids I won't be home,
Say that I am not alone.
I needed my family.
Most of all, the one I cherish most.
Merry Christmas to my family.
I'll be dead soon, you'll forget me.
When the sun will shine, you'll be happy.
I won't let you down, please forgive me.
I didn't try to call.
I didn't care for my phone.
I just stayed quiet alone.
I needed my family.
Most of all, the one I cherish most.
Merry Christmas to my family.
I'll be dead soon, you'll forget me.
When the sun will shine, you'll be happy.
I won't let you down, please forgive me.
I won't be home for Christmas.
I won't be around anymore.
Merry Christmas to my family.
I'll be dead soon, you'll forget me.
When the sun will shine, you'll be happy.
I won't let you down, please forgive me.
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Back to the Old Days
03:23
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5 years ago feels more like a century.
Passing the time, writing these journal entries.
Hoping someday, somewhere, someone will take a chance on me.
There was a time I saw us on the marquee.
Flashing our name and lighting up the city.
Thinking everyday, everyone from everywhere took a chance on me.
Someday, we'll talk about the old days,
Wondering where time has gone.
With our brothers, only having each other,
Not thinking that life would change.
Take me back to the old days.
I wake up now, feeling like something's missing.
Working myself through these responsibilities.
Wishing everyday, every week, every month, that this is all a dream.
Someday, we'll talk about the old days,
Wondering where time has gone.
With our brothers, only having each other,
Not thinking that life would change.
Take me back to the old days.
Why can't we go back?
Take me back to the old days.
Why can't we go back?
Take me back to the old days.
Why can't we just go back?
(What I remember)
Take me back to the old days.
Why can't we go?
(What I remember)
Take me back to the old days.
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Among the Wildflowers Anaheim, California
Among the Wildflowers is:
-Kirk Kisch
-Jacob Day
-Brandon "Squid" Leach
cosoc.com/atw
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